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    My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  justme on Mon Feb 08, 2016 10:05 pm

    I feel like I'm headed down a one way street to following her. What the hell is wrong with me?
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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  ameliorate on Mon Feb 08, 2016 10:20 pm

    Obviously you are distraught and grieving.  With such thoughts that you think you are headed likewise, I urge
    you to seek professional help....



    http://www.suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_online.html


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    Post  Bodhicitta on Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:13 pm

    justme wrote:I feel like I'm headed down a one way street to following her. What the hell is wrong with me?

    Do not do it justme!  Your after-death state will be far worse for you than the agony you feel now.

    See if any part of this brief piece on 'why suicide does not work' will help to stop the pull you feel down that 'one way street'.

    Check out the blog of Mark Jaqua at markrjaqua.wordpress.com
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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  ameliorate on Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:28 pm

    I agree with Bodhicitta about the negative repercussions on the passage of your soul should you act on your current thoughts.  There is
    much that supports this from various spiritual teachings.  I suggest you do a google search on this.
     
    Making a rash judgement when highly emotional is never wise.  Do you meditate? 

    It would be beneficial/empowering to remember all your virtues.  Focus on the positives.

    Perhaps you would benefit from some soothing music or, maybe this (posted on another thread)




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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  justme on Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:41 pm

    How do you know that for a fact bodhi?

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    Post  justme on Mon Feb 08, 2016 11:58 pm

    I think I've been committing suicide for years anyway

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    Post  justme on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:02 am

    I'm insane so according to the article if "in a fit of insanity" the person commits suicide they won't have to suffer in the afterlife

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    Post  justme on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:03 am

    I'm not made for this world and its never going to get better as it has never been better..
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    Post  ameliorate on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:12 am

    justme wrote:I'm insane so according to the article if "in a fit of insanity" the person commits suicide they won't have to suffer in the afterlife
    I do recall reading that you said you had borderline personality disorder and that you take medication for your hallucinations.
    Is there a support group for your condition?

    There must be some things that you enjoy about being alive.  Maybe you could focus on them more and/or what inspires you.



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    Post  justme on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:18 am

    Nothing helps the groups don't help.. I'm sorry to you two. I'll leave this alone.
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    Post  ameliorate on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:29 am

    justme wrote:Nothing helps the groups don't help.. I'm sorry to you two. I'll leave this alone.
    I'm sorry to hear that the groups don't help.  Often there is some relief to be got by sharing with like minded people
    and support.  Nevertheless it will be beneficial to look at what IS working for you in your life....it is easy to overlook
    so much when focusing on negativity.   Try and give this some thought...i.e. don't automatically dismiss it.

    I send you my love ♥
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    Post  Bodhicitta on Tue Feb 09, 2016 12:44 am

    justme wrote:I'm insane so according to the article if "in a fit of insanity" the person commits suicide they won't have to suffer in the afterlife

    If you have been thinking about suicide for some time, that is hardly a suddenly arising 'fit'.  So a planned killing of self is not a sign of insanity.

    I know the after-death state of a suicide is bad because all great teachers know it is so and have warned against it.

    Here is the Sage William Q. Judge outlining the effect of suicide in his article "Suicide is not Death":


    William Q Judge wrote:
    Suicide, like any other murder is a sin because it is a sudden disturbance of the harmony of the world. It is a sin because it defeats nature. Nature exists for the sake of the soul and for no other reason, it has the design, so to say, of giving the soul experience and self-consciousness. These can only be had by means of a body through which the soul comes in contact with nature, and to violently sever the connection before the natural time defeats the aim of nature, for the present compelling her, by her own slow processes, to restore the task left unfinished. And as those processes must go on through the soul that permitted the murder, more pain and suffering must follow.
    And the disturbance of the general harmony is a greater sin than most men think. They consider themselves alone, as separate, as not connected with others. But they are connected throughout the whole world with all other souls and minds. A subtle, actual, powerful band links them all together, and the instant one of all these millions disturbs the link the whole mass feels it by reaction through soul and mind, and can only return to a normal state through a painful adjustment. This adjustment is on the unseen, but all-important, planes of being in which the real man exists. Thus each murderer of self or of another imposes on entire humanity an unjustifiable burden. From this injustice he cannot escape, for his body's death does not cut him off from the rest; it only places him, deprived of nature's instruments, in the clutch of laws that are powerful and implacable, ceaseless in their operation and compulsory in their demands.
    Suicide is a huge folly, because it places the committer of it in an infinitely worse position than he was in under the conditions from which he foolishly hoped to escape. It is not death. It is only a leaving of one well-known house in familiar surroundings to go into a new place where terror and despair alone have place. It is but a preliminary death done to the clay, which is put in the "cold embrace of the grave," leaving the man himself naked and alive, but out of mortal life and not in either heaven or hell.

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    Post  justme on Tue Feb 09, 2016 2:07 am

    Um... Thank you bodhi for clarifying that. I guess I was worried that I will end up more insane than I am already and will end up doing it because I was feeling so hurt and fragile and I almost feel possessed by demonic entities. Thoughts come into my mind that are intrusive and I wish it wasn't so but more often than not these thoughts are horrible ugly thoughts and it leads to pain in the heart which is felt deeply which leads to thinking suicide is the way out of this. I really wish my life was not so hard. Harder than most peoples and I could say why I see it that way but I won't complain too much. I'm sorry for disturbing you who have read this. I am truly in a dark place sometimes I look through my eyes at the world and see nothing. Like no future, no potential positive happy experiences to be had, just nothing and it hurts in the heart. There are too many situations that hurt me right in the heart.

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    Post  justme on Tue Feb 09, 2016 2:09 am

    How can a clinically insane person have a fit of insanity.... That I can't wrap my head around.
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    Post  Bodhicitta on Tue Feb 09, 2016 2:27 am

    justme wrote:Um... Thank you bodhi for clarifying that. I guess I was worried that I will end up more insane than I am already and will end up doing it because I was feeling so hurt and fragile and I almost feel possessed by demonic entities. Thoughts come into my mind that are intrusive and I wish it wasn't so but more often than not these thoughts are horrible ugly thoughts and it leads to pain in the heart which is felt deeply which leads to thinking suicide is the way out of this. I really wish my life was not so hard. Harder than most peoples and I could say why I see it that way but I won't complain too much. I'm sorry for disturbing you who have read this. I am truly in a dark place sometimes I look through my eyes at the world and see nothing. Like no future, no potential positive happy experiences to be had, just nothing and it hurts in the heart. There are too many situations that hurt me right in the heart.

    Buddha and his bodhisattvas will help you, if you put some attention toward them.  Try saying quietly or inwardly or out loud OM MANI PADME HUM as often as you can.  This mantra connects you to Kuan Yin bodhisattva (also known as Lord of the World) who has helped people in duress for hundreds of years.

    I recall some years ago a demon was chasing me and I dashed up some stairs, but he was closing in and about to get me.  So I called out OM MANI PADME HUM a few times.  From the top of the stairs a light shone down and past me, I turned around to look and the demon stopped in his tracks, turned away and disappeared.
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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  Blueanchor on Tue Feb 09, 2016 6:55 am

    justme wrote:How can a clinically insane person have a fit of insanity.... That I can't wrap my head around.


    If the article doesn't resonate with you, then let it go.

    But in an earlier post you asked whether anyone actually knows if it's real - and the answer is that nobody does really know. But similarly, you don't know what's around the corner, you don't know what the rest of your life might bring.

    What you do know, is that suicide doesn't change the past - the past will always be there, but it won't necessarily happen again. 

    Suicide is about trying to avoid the future, not healing the hurt from the past.
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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  ameliorate on Tue Feb 09, 2016 10:38 am

    justme wrote:Um... Thank you bodhi for clarifying that. I guess I was worried that I will end up more insane than I am already and will end up doing it because I was feeling so hurt and fragile and I almost feel possessed by demonic entities. Thoughts come into my mind that are intrusive and I wish it wasn't so but more often than not these thoughts are horrible ugly thoughts and it leads to pain in the heart which is felt deeply which leads to thinking suicide is the way out of this. I really wish my life was not so hard. Harder than most peoples and I could say why I see it that way but I won't complain too much. I'm sorry for disturbing you who have read this. I am truly in a dark place sometimes I look through my eyes at the world and see nothing. Like no future, no potential positive happy experiences to be had, just nothing and it hurts in the heart. There are too many situations that hurt me right in the heart.
    I would suggest that the reason you look at the world and see nothing is that you are quite likely to be profoundly depressed!
    This can numb your senses.  Have you thought about consulting your GP?

    Also, please check out this section for protection

    http://www.spiritualinspiration.org/f25-cleansing-grounding-protection
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    Re: My twin flame committed suicide

    Post  Auras on Tue Feb 09, 2016 4:56 pm

    justme wrote:I feel like I'm headed down a one way street to following her. What the hell is wrong with me?

    Nothing is wrong with you, Your human. 

    Think about this, think about how the people close to you, how would they feel if you actually commited suicide? Would you really want them to have the problems your facing now on there hands? Would you want to put them through all the heart ache?

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    Post  DeniseMed2 on Fri Sep 22, 2017 4:13 pm

    There is nothing wrong with you, you are in dark place at the moment and your grief is overwhelming according to your posts :hugz: but I wonder why do you think you are clinically insane ? Not one psychiatrist would call you clinically insane either !

    There are many patients who I have worked with over many years that have loved and lost ! And if you are willing, you need grief counselling start with your GP
    You need to go through your grieving process but you can reach out for help. It is very easy to commit suicide but harder to live.

    And when you feel ready, our emotions can block out spiritual connections, ask your twinflame why she committed suicide, this will happen through a medium to see if they can provide answers. I am so sorry for your loss, your journey into the spirit world is not an easy road for you to travel but if you are willing to give life a chance you may be surprised at what your life holds. I wish you well. x

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